Kenny starred the pouring rain at the window with some thought on her mind. the fall drop was as much as her tears. She reminded the life she has been through.
Kenny is married. She married with a man who her parent had choosen. Both had known each other, because they were at same high school. In same school didn't mean make them close each other. Kenny had heard about Rob. The leader of soccer club that never date girl in school. Rob was so introvert, he would talk if he needed to. Kenny agreed with her parent choice, she didnt think about her feeling to him. As she knew, to see her parent happy is her responsibility to take.
Kenny didn't know that rob was so popular in his office. There were many girls that felt in love with him. kenny had heard about the girl that always flirt to him, but she was not getting jealous. She tend to dont care about it. But one day, when she starred at the mirror and looked at herself, she realized something. She talked to herself "how long will you do this, dont care about your husband and dont pay attention at all. Let yourself attempt to love him. He need you". Kenny took a breath deep and exhale it. She reminded her self that what she had choosen is the responsibility to bear. Rob is her responsibility. Whatever the situation was, she had to take care and pay attentiom to rob. Rob is her husband.
As time flies, kenny tried to love him as much as she could. Kenny believed that rob tried too.
yes, couldn't hide the fact that kenny felt in love to him. Kenny loved the way he gave attention, made a fun and some warm hugs that she never got before.
Rob had ever told to kenny, before they're married, rob had ever date with a girl named rachel. As they go along together, rob realized that rachel had fiance. Rob left her behind and didnt talk to her after that.
In mid january 1979, the trouble came into Rob and Kenny. Gwen, rachel's sister is kenny's office mate. Gwen was the only one who disliked kenny's marriage because she thought that Rob was supposed to belong to her sister. Gwen was the main trouble in kenny's day in her office. Whatever that kenny did, would be a mistake. Kenny couldnt bear for it.
In one night she told to rob whats happened, she cried on his arm. Kenny couldnt ask more than his hug. Rob also told that Rachel was trying to flirt him again. But rob didnt give a damn of her. Kenny thanked to him because of his action that didint make kenny brokenhearted.
As they went along to build the dreams-come-true marriage, everything had changed. Rob became tempramental and
Perfunctory. Rob back home so rarely. He told that he had many works to do outside. They both became lack of conversation in every single day but as long as she could, she always gave attention to her husband as the wife's responsibility. Rob infrequently to call her back. Kenny was so guilty, she thought that may she was wrong or had some mistakes to him. Rob didnt answer, he tend to shut his mouth up and didn't talk anything. It tortured her mind and soul. Kenny missed her half and feel so weak about this. Kenny cried out loud in every single day and never tired to pray to god.
One day, kenny came into her husband's office to give some food for lunch. Kenny called him to meet kenny in front of his office but no anwered at all. kenny tried again and again but no answered. Kenny thought that her husband was on meeting or the another important thing. Kenny waited him. Two hours no his face came. Kenny was so hopeless. Then there was the security staff came to her asked "what are you waiting for madam?"
"I am waiting for my husband, is he in his room?"
"Yes, it is a breaktime, mr. Ferguson must be in his room. May I call him to you?"
"No thank you, sir"
Kenny left her husband's office. She tried to hold her tears. She walked away in middle of the rain.
"Hey beauty come in, come in. You looked so messy"
The elderly women called kenny when she walked. Kenny came into her little house. She was so alone, because her husband was died and her kids leave at another country.
"I am sorry beauty, I just can give you this. I have no everything that may you have" the woman gave kenny towel and a cup of tea
"I have seen you walked with empty stare. Are you sad?"
Kenny didnt answer she just saw the woman face who reminded her with her passed granny. The women came to kenny and hug her tight. Kenny couldnt hold her tears, they were fallin.
"You dont need to told me what you feel or what you did, I didnt wanna ask you about. The thing that you have to know is life ain't easy if you are the same person. Sometimes you need to be assertive and get angry if it is needed. Don't be so weak. Wolf will kill the lonely sheep"
Kenny, so thankful to god that had meet her to this woman. An hour wise advice boost kenny's soul. She opened her mind about life from her.
"Okay, madam thank you for everything. I can't describe my gratitude to you. I have to leave"
"Welcome, beauty. Come here if you need me . I'll glad to be with you. Remember preyers fix everything, sacrifice got everything"
The women smiled at kenny and looked her until she disappeared.
Rob didnt come home, he didnt call kenny back. Kenny on her messy and jealousy thought. She was so afraid that there may be girl with him. She was afraid that he left her heartlessly.
Kenny, blamed on her self for this. She tought that she supposed to be not getting married with rob. She forced her face to smile every single day. Kenny had ever thought about divorce, but she thought once again. In the beginning of marriage Rob and Kenny had promised to live the life together. Kenny had promised in front of her parent and family. Kenny bear the promise. Promise is the responsibility that have to be paid off. If kenny follow her ego as well, she could go and date with better men. She is still young. But, Kenny suggested herself that marriage is done once in entire life.
suddenly, Kenny got bleeding out from her nose and at the same time the little pair of hands hugs her back that woke her up for her thought.
"Mommy are you okay? What happened with your nose?"
Kenny took the tissue and cleaned her nosebleeding. And hold the cutie's hand.
"Mommy, I am sleepy and feel cold. Could you please sleep with me and hugs me till I fall a sleep"
"Yes sure, my dear"
The 3-old-years girl named chloe is one of the reason she has to be strong and courage to face the troubles and illness.
She's good but she lies, she is broken but won't people know. She's messy.
Sometimes, what we got in life is not what we asked for but what we need. Kenny thought that god have sent Rob to her because kenny need him. Rob may not give something to kenny, but what Rob has done to kenny is a lesson to be learnt. Kenny is reckless just enough, get hurt but learns how to toughen up when she's brokenhearted. It finally reminds her to fight and bring back fire in her eyes. How hard the situation is kenny loves Rob. Kenny loves Rob. Kenny Loves Rob. Kenny just known that she been got leukemia. Because of that, kenny have to be strong and get better to keep her life's good. Kenny have been trying to make it better. Kenny believe is all true.
Summer in 1979, Rob came home. Chloe met her father everyday.
Fall in 1980, Kenny pregnant her second child. And Rob still at home smiled at her.
Prayers, Patience and sacrifice always be paid off. Kenny is the happiest women in the world.
